I’ve realised how much it hurts . It hurts that I used to be able to talk to someone about any old thing. It’s like a punch in the stomach as I recall I used to be able to talk to people, interact like it was normal. Now I cudnt says single word to anyone ever. How much that has destroyed my school experience. Not that fact I’ve messed up my exams. No it’s the fact that in two years I have become so socially withdrawn I cannot say a word at all. I don’t even care that I’ve gone from being a good student to a crap one. I can’t help feeling as though I should have known this would happen.