I wake up and realise that you are gone, it feels strange without you, like a significant part of my life has gone. When i remember i feel empty and cold and so so sad, not even watching New Girl can cheer me up. I just cannot believe it, you were in my life for so long and now you have tragically gone. I suppose over time i will get used to you not being around. It feels strange walking into the house where you used to live, i keep on thinking you will make me a cup of tea, (apart from myself) only you can make it the way i like, then i remember i am never going to see your face again. Every time i say the words you are dead, i just can’t believe i will never again hear you talk about trains. It is an odd, sad feeling, but hopefully over time, i will get used to it.